I want to first put a disclaimer out here. I’m not a writer, this is my first time doing a “blog”. With that said this page is kinda just for my thoughts, what’s going on in this crazy life I’ve been handed lately. So if it’s not “grammatically correct” please don’t judge me!
Now, back to how this journey started…
Back in May I went for my normal yearly mammogram. I opted to pay the extra $40 for 3D (in case my insurance didn’t cover it). That was a blessing in disguise. 2-3 days later I got a call to go get an ultrasound as “something” showed up…
Have you ever had that feeling of just “knowing”… I told Jeff that day that I didn’t have a good feeling about this. So I went for the ultrasound and the girl said she’d be right back. She was going to let someone read it and they might come and talk to me. And he did. He told me I would need a biopsy of said “something”. I told him ok, I was supposed to have had one years ago and my surgeon said it just needed draining. He looked at me and said “yeah sometimes you can tell if it’s just fluid, but this REALLY needed a biopsy of it.” He kept asking me if I had questions- sign #1 lol
Met with Dr Shouse in like 2 days
There’s your sign #2 (when everything is so fast paced – you know something isn’t right). He informed me there would need to be an ultrasound guided biopsy. This was scheduled for May 31st.
Had the biopsy and then had to wait another week before I went back to see Dr Shouse with the results.
Let’s move on to June 7th. The day you hear the news that “You have breast cancer” this was a Friday. Jeff and Kim went with me that day. Dr Shouse explained that I would need a lumpectomy and asked if I wanted to have surgery right away and of course we said yes. He asked if Monday worked… again this was all soo fast paced. Of course we said yes!
We all left the doctors office feeling somewhat devastated so what do you do on a day like that you might ask … you go pick Merle up and the four of you head to our favorite Mexican restaurant for Margaritas! Yep, I got hammered. No way to sugar coat that lol
I breeze through surgery on the 10th of June. Went back to see Shouse the following Friday – all was good. They set up appointments with Oncologist and Radiologist.
On June 21st Kim, Jeff and I went to Dr Arekapudi (oncologist). The three of us loved her! She made phone calls while we were there to gather a little more info. Size wise the tumor removed didn’t require chemo only radiation. But I had a few more factors going against me. I was triple negative. So she requested a mamma print. This is were the pathologist gets back out what was removed and looks at it a little differently. He studies it, my gene makeup and such and determines a factor as to if I would benefit from Chemo.
Skip to June 25th – saw Dr Carlsen the radiologist. Basically said they can’t start anything till the mamma print is returned.
So we wait…………
July 2nd – probably my worst day through all of this!! When Arekapudia informed me that I needed chemo I felt like the air was sucked out of the room, my sails were deflated so to speak. I had prayed that I wouldn’t need chemo but I also told our God that I was turning it over to him.
With the chemo I have a 95% chance of it not returning within 5 years.
Yes, I’ll take door #1 and have the chemo! So I’ll have 16 chemo treatments followed by a possible 2 week break then 6-7 weeks of radiation. The chemo is only every other week. The radiation is everyday Monday-Friday. So we are looking at approximately 40 weeks before it’s all said and done.
First things first – cancel our darn 3 week vacation in September to HHI!
I am strong, I believe in the power of prayer and I WILL Win! Cancer will not define me, I will kick it’s sorry ass to the curb and down the drain!!!
God’s got this and so do I !!
Monday the 8th I get my port placed and Thursday the 11th I have my first treatment. So it begins…
Now I’ll introduce you to my support team (my tribe) Jeff Croley – my soul mate my ROCK! I couldn’t imagine going through this without him by my side. Or through this life in general.
Kim Satterwhite- my bestie! She has been by my side through every step.
Becky Myers – my sister from another mother. We have been friends for more years than I care to count lol
Jackye Hammond – another bestie that I couldn’t live without.
My Sister Brenda Vernia – we all know I couldn’t do this without her. One of the strongest women I know!
There are many others in my tribe that have already done so much for me. Brenda and Terry Denny, my high school friends dubbed as “The Troublemakers”, Carol Taylor and Kendyl and Michael- the list goes on..
I’ll close for now. I will probably not update again till Monday. But who know I may have some thoughts I wish to share over the weekend.